佛陀涅槃地的思索
二月十五，不单我们中国冬去春来，印度也是百花盛开。在这样一个生命复苏满心欢喜的时刻，本师释迦牟尼佛却给我们示现了无常的到来。二十一世纪，人类文明前所未有的发达，当我们陶醉在五蕴幻化当中，痴迷于此而不知返的时候，我们来到了现在的Kushinagar，佛经里说的拘尸那罗，佛陀的涅槃地。
从蓝毗尼园出来的时候，我就想：到佛出生的地方就是这么伤心了，到佛涅槃的地方那不要哭死过去啊，所以佛慈悲啊，上次还让我第二站拘尸那罗不要来，当我决定今年要来朝圣，我孕育了一年，一直都筹划着怎么来面对。今天早上我匆匆看经啊，打坐啊，然后这一刻我该怎么面对？因为我以前《大般涅槃经》没有读完过，因为没办法读下去，读读就痛哭流涕了！
当读到：虚空世界无靠了，世界是空了，虚空了，诸大阿罗汉尊者们，哇！痛哭得连汗毛都外冒血的时候，昡晕过去一次次，哭醒过来再哭又昏倒过去，就感受到弟子们这种强烈的痛：在世尊法乳的哺育下超出了六道，得到了涅槃分的快乐法喜，但这时忽然我们依靠的法祖却要离开了，衪的三十二相八十种好没办法再目睹到了……这时不管是文字上的还是影片中的，只要看到佛陀入涅槃的这一刻，都是非常非常难过的，泪水横流！我告诉自己这一次来，一定不能哭，一定不能流泪，结果这次来真的没有流泪！
Ponder in the Land of Nirvana
February the 15th,it not only symbolised the end of winter and the arrival of spring in China,hundreds of flowers also started blossoming in India. At such a happy and joyous moment where all lives were awakening, Buddha Shakyamuni,our great teacher had shown the Law of Impermanence. In 21st century, the humankind has enjoyed the unprecedented development in the history of human civilisation. While we are still indulging ourselves in such a world of illusions to the extent that we have lost our direction, we are guided to Kushinagar – the land where Buddha attained Nirvana.
After departing from Lumbini (the birthplace of Buddha), I kept thinking: If it is already so heart-aching to be at Buddha’s birthplace, it would be almost impossible to think how sad one could feel at the place where Buddha reached Parinirvana. It was because of Buddha’s compassion that I could not visit the second destination, Kushinagar, during my last visit. When I decided to make apilgrimage this year, I had been preparing myself for a year to face up to this situation again this time. This morning, I read some sutras and meditated hastily, and (asked myself) how would I face up to it? I have never been able to read the “Sutra Concerning the Great Parinirvana” completely because I couldnot control my tears and cried my heart out while reading it.
Every time when I read till: ‘The vast vacant space of the world has lost its only support, the world has become empty, and all great Arhats…’Wow, I couldn’t bear reading it anymore and continued to cry until the blood flows out from the fine hair under the skin. I fainted again and again. Basically, (I) cried until I woke up again and then fainted once more… this was how I felt the strong pain of the disciples.The World Honoured One had fed us with Dharma that allowed us to surpass the six realms of existence and reach the joy of attaining Nirvana. However, suddenly our only Dharma teacher is leaving us. We can no longer see His 32 manifestations and 80 goodness…. At this very moment, it does not matter the words or the movies, one can feel deep sorrow while the tears keep falling with just a glimpse of Buddha entering the state of Parinirvana. This time, I told myself that I must not cry and my tears must not fall. As are sult, I did not cry this time.
爱出者爱返，福往者福来。随喜转载，功德无量。
